tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-337823652312694122024-02-08T02:05:11.741+01:00One Forty FiveA weight loss blog.Eszterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15277637910916778345noreply@blogger.comBlogger49125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-33782365231269412.post-16892192766376048402010-01-25T20:35:00.005+01:002010-01-25T20:46:34.518+01:00Moving ...<div>Dear everyone,<br /><br />after a two month hiatus I'm still into weight loss, I just had a really hard exam period which lasted 1,5 months. Now with all my exams done and my ankle seems to be okay I plan to continue my weight loss journey and hopefully running. I found tumblr easier and faster, so for more frequent updates I decided to move my blog to a different place. I think it's for the best, now with the last couple of pounds to lose I see new objectives in the weight loss journey and a fresh start can always be so motivating.<div><br /></div><div>I'm catching up on your blogs soon, until then if you're still interested, you can find me here:</div><div><a href="http://sixty-four.tumblr.com/">Sixty-four @ tumblr</a></div></div><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgmrgRFW-9ARrdmwVu82GGlckO7F32I9A7_-e9EUa1VBCtICD0LtddmXvajMpCGeQ38-DP9v1E0Q3GoVNPWpPJAlZNMFNXop1X2hMSzJtGFThzFdgP91FVO6G-sSvAf0m6-szqsPFHRHw4/s1600-h/tumblr-logo.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 194px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgmrgRFW-9ARrdmwVu82GGlckO7F32I9A7_-e9EUa1VBCtICD0LtddmXvajMpCGeQ38-DP9v1E0Q3GoVNPWpPJAlZNMFNXop1X2hMSzJtGFThzFdgP91FVO6G-sSvAf0m6-szqsPFHRHw4/s320/tumblr-logo.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5430765666719735106" /></a>Cheers!Eszterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15277637910916778345noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-33782365231269412.post-43636522997132126752010-01-09T10:30:00.002+01:002010-01-09T10:34:51.250+01:00Hiatus UpdateDear Fellow Bloggers, <br /><br />I haven't given up on weight loss, it's just life and a hard core exam period with unbelievable exams. I'm still keeping my eye on the goal, however, December and January have been all about weight maintaining so far. But, proud to be to announce that today I finally reached a milestone!<br /><br /><strong>68.1kg / 149.8lbs</strong><br /><br />I really hope you guys are doing okay, posting again starts hopefully next week. <br /><br />Cheers!Eszterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15277637910916778345noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-33782365231269412.post-69749735981340696742009-12-05T12:48:00.002+01:002009-12-05T12:49:02.605+01:005-6 December, Santa’s DaySo sorry, I’ve been a bad blogger and a blogger friend, it’s just the past two weeks were insane. The fall/winter semester is almost over, I have tons of exams coming up, and other additional issues. I try to catch up on your blogs soon and put up a decent post what’s really going on. But, I’m still in game, haven’t given up yet. </p>I also wanted to let all of you, where I live, we don’t celebrate Christmas with Santa Claus, we have a special day for him. He comes on the night of 5th Dec and puts chocolate and all kinds of sweet things to the little children’s boots. So, happy Saint Nicholaus Day for those who celebrate it today and tomorrow! (:</p><p><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg5-tx30q5jU2R17u0y4U16tFPyJcBChvsrMp_GeGpec9ybvr9-RTTXAKFN-6CLx7HdjoudufTV7G_hsOGpM4wfCQSOwLo2OeCo-5lFPZTeZNvRo-Hup7x8U7iqroBk3XLv3GH7feg-VM0/s1600-h/funny-santa-claus-dance%5B2%5D.gif"><img style="DISPLAY: block; FLOAT: none; MARGIN-LEFT: auto; MARGIN-RIGHT: auto" title="funny-santa-claus-dance" alt="funny-santa-claus-dance" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg-bQVbco-DrhfCOwFlXv-uy7N0S4nUkFGN7az7yokPqLyOS7JKLiXA4J0o9L5Sm9VElADrXr3c9PDKgNucxAbajilNYL0m5Zk6jhtUudh3Injo5Ko0HD4zJZbfhyMzInkMHhtUTeNOa-8/?imgmax=800" width="211" height="240" /></a></p>Eszterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15277637910916778345noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-33782365231269412.post-43305642381012984042009-11-23T19:49:00.002+01:002009-11-23T19:50:44.451+01:00:(Running yesterday was a bad idea. I felt my ankle steady during the run but today it hurts so much at places where it shouldn’t and the ankle is swollen again. I think my mind knew that it wasn’t ready because by the pain I realize I pretty much put all the pressure on my other side. People also called me crazy today, several times for hitting the running field again. Moreover, I feel extreme stiff both in my thighs, damn … this is 2,5 weeks without training. I think I may gave up on my plan to run the 8.3km on Dec 11 and put running aside for another 2 weeks… :( Health first, right?Eszterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15277637910916778345noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-33782365231269412.post-17625391551302743402009-11-22T19:22:00.007+01:002009-11-22T19:27:45.372+01:00Get in ‘Shape’(the dates are messy because I wrote it yesterday just forgot to post) </p>This has been the 18th day since my last run. Unbelievable. (!!!) Ever since I can’t actively move my legs I’ve been spending a lot of time on the internet, just for research. I try to explain why. </p>When I started the weight loss thing it was all about the loss. I had fat and unwanted body parts everywhere and I just wanted them to ‘shrink’. So I mostly did cardio work to burn the fat. But I saw the photos which were taken on the party and I had to realize that’s not enough any more. Odd enough, but I’m starting to be okay with my legs and butt, but my upper body is scandalous. On those photos they look like I was put together from two different person, like Frankenstein. It’s also been a topic on the blogosphere for a while so I found this: <a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh6Y5MwzhmNy7OAz4UftcaLxnkKxXxTvpbe1aHZ3yej6xUpQXGh53npgVbIZ5cougARuVI0b8fZlaia9bO0CjaKWv2atZANL0zj_QeiZ0boBTs8WhsD3c3NqdVSr4ZDnHf6xr3wwBGTRTQ/s1600-h/Capture32.png"><img style="BORDER-RIGHT-WIDTH: 0px; DISPLAY: block; FLOAT: none; BORDER-TOP-WIDTH: 0px; BORDER-BOTTOM-WIDTH: 0px; MARGIN-LEFT: auto; BORDER-LEFT-WIDTH: 0px; MARGIN-RIGHT: auto" title="Capture3" border="0" alt="Capture3" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgoLQkX5EXYRaGRL0ia4CBaHFn3XqYlnjKqBV5BwfnLxFopBb-ODoZErOzZ7gzoBL83vbW-Br5XA8vpORWjwizZ15kWN3juJLXcEF4mNEtbmiXSFijaMagxy1crYKjsQVniVUACyyAbkGo/?imgmax=800" width="244" height="215" /></a>I’m a standard apple. Damn. Very small ankles and wrists, even my arms are small, but above my waist everything is so … I would say ‘weirdly shaped’. </p><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgTuPfIGSgfQOEh8Hz8s1IOfOrvU5eyNfruZ4I5mpWjBWGbO4fV-IFEi_jd44xDtPVQYd_afLEooCw0cnFVUlhoI3KKc4GwWQ8OKCxEOrXkO7ZpjTcXYCHx0Eo8W3IMl_QleJ3O2RPOBi4/s1600-h/figure7.jpg"><img style="BORDER-RIGHT-WIDTH: 0px; DISPLAY: block; FLOAT: none; BORDER-TOP-WIDTH: 0px; BORDER-BOTTOM-WIDTH: 0px; MARGIN-LEFT: auto; BORDER-LEFT-WIDTH: 0px; MARGIN-RIGHT: auto" title="figure" border="0" alt="figure" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjha_MLd9mut8alzm8oySM0wjWS6mTZeImmuKq73hnOI87w5JBa7m3fFNqYeSm6lyUK_nK5Fh9VrKGIK_EIygBQM8XiGSSRWfovxAtIsTLQoFHCB6Y6MfC6cXHPUMo_y9MTTsk3RacalZg/?imgmax=800" width="244" height="196" /></a>I tried to look for any advice but the first thing they came up with this body type (on every site I visited) is that how critical for your health this situation on the long term, could be the source of cardio and etc problems. Fantastic. There were some diet suggestions (basically eat healthy, whatsoever) but no detailed workouts. Only reference: lift weights. <p></p>My reaction: great. I hate lifting weights, I hate doing this kind of exercises in general. But it seems that it might be the answer for my problem. <p></p>I have a couple of DVDs which have a great focus on the troubled areas, but there are some very cool Abs workout routines I found to be useful on youtube, in case you’re interested: <p></p><ul><li>Lorie Baker's Pilates Routine: <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=15Uxbv4WOpo&feature=related" target="_blank">here</a>. </li><li>The Best Pilates Core Workout Video: <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aWqetvphLEU&feature=PlayList&p=6380115D0A7F00D6&index=5" target="_blank">here</a>. </li><li>Béres Alexandra - Abs workout: <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xvh2MtreZnE&feature=related" target="_blank">here</a>. (note: this isn’t in English but a full 10 minute workout)</li></ul>Eszterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15277637910916778345noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-33782365231269412.post-83914447600075963402009-11-22T16:57:00.006+01:002009-11-22T17:21:57.731+01:00Run!!!This afternoon my dad told me to pick up his shoes from the Plaza and I was thinking that I might go for a power walk before since I desperately ‘crave’ active exercise. (the term belongs to <a href="http://anothertasteofthin.blogspot.com/2009/11/dare-i-say-exercise-cravings.html" target="_blank">SkinnyMinnie</a> (: ) The weather was ugly, very foggy and wet but I put on my workout gear just in case. I spent the last two days reading online material about running after injury so I won’t lie that that was my goal. I did a thorough warm-up but I was afraid of the leaves on the already slippery pavement. First I aimed for 4 times 5 minute run, 3-4 minute walk. I was very careful. Right after I started running I realized that my ankle didn’t feel weird at all, just a little powerless which is no wonder after 2,5 weeks rest. So, I ended up running 2 times 15 minutes, with a 3 minute walk in between just to be sure I wouldn’t push my current limits too hard. The second 15 minutes were a bit faster but I tried to calm myself, don’t freak out, you’re running! Again! (: <p></p>So I didn’t want to risk to do a longer workout. I might calculate the distance later (approx. 4,5km I guess) but I’m still thrilled. It was quite sentimental, since my workout finished with the song, <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Iawro7IfoCM&feature=fvst" target="_blank">Whatever it Takes by Lifehouse</a>. Now I’m enjoying a warm tea and put a bag of ice on my ankle just to prevent any swollenness. I try to take it slow, but … YAY! (:<br /><br /><object width="445" height="364"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/-kcvcv10g5g&hl=en_US&fs=1&rel=0&color1=0xcc2550&color2=0xe87a9f&border=1"><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/-kcvcv10g5g&hl=en_US&fs=1&rel=0&color1=0xcc2550&color2=0xe87a9f&border=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="445" height="364"></embed></object><br /><em>Edit: I calculated my run and it was 4.35km (2.7miles). Post injury, it's not that bad.</em>Eszterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15277637910916778345noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-33782365231269412.post-13003084844080074352009-11-22T00:52:00.004+01:002009-11-22T00:54:37.457+01:00Bittersweet - Deadlines versus Carpe Diem.Today’s weigh in: 71.3kg / 156.8lbs (0.6kg / 1.3lbs loss) <p></p>I really don’t want to complain, because even if I can’t run right now, I’m still losing. The pessimism might be due to October’s progress when I was doing sports actively and losing fast week by week. Now, it’s a little hard to process this new ‘gear’ I’m in. Sport became my daily routine in the past months and now I feel how I much I miss it. And around August I had a little something in my mind. I know it is embarrassing but I admit it: I wanted to be below 70 kg (or 150lbs) by the New Moon premiere. (I haven’t seen it yet, though) <p></p>I have some ideas why I’m in such a blah mood, but apart from that sometimes I think about which would be the better: to set goals and deadlines or just doing things carpe diem, without any pressure. Well, since I’m an economist/business major I still prefer deadlines and goals in order to be effective. Failure can be tough, but also motivating. In my case right now I feel disappointed, but on the other hand without any major workouts I’m only 1.3kg (2.8pounds) away from that milestone. After what I’ve been through it should be a piece of cake, right? <p></p>The other thing which bothers me a lot (besides the lack of workouts) that I really put my anxiety on other people. I don’t think I’m rude but I’ve been definitely talking way too much about weight loss, which has never – ever – been my strong point. (I’m still surprised by myself!) I tend to bring up the topic way too many times, and how disappointed I’m with this and that etc. I could keep this in a secret for a long time and now since it’s out maybe this is my way to handle ‘embarrassment’. No idea, but I need to stop. Really. Seriously. <p></p>One other confession: due to ‘other’ things, and my blah mood I had a binge day. Not a crucial one, but enough that I’m sick to my stomach… and it doesn’t feel nice. :(Eszterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15277637910916778345noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-33782365231269412.post-36465079528155098422009-11-19T10:12:00.003+01:002009-11-19T10:14:33.110+01:00Quick update<p><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhuqN-geRHWQdDWV2Y7P-qCakJRKAgJvbJ7aJ6IusRnHjaHRlG6V4FqcOnSkYC8FfPqfvpD-kw0opT4myCisDPkn8HuQacuJso18w-bV4vhcu7qv-JHTwS4pEoxF1hAa-ZdQIGReh0PWBI/s1600-h/mail2%5B2%5D.jpg"><img style="BORDER-BOTTOM: 0px; BORDER-LEFT: 0px; DISPLAY: block; FLOAT: none; MARGIN-LEFT: auto; BORDER-TOP: 0px; MARGIN-RIGHT: auto; BORDER-RIGHT: 0px" title="mail2" border="0" alt="mail2" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjBLVN6tPDE79gjtskN3tKIC4JYPLtPDFoutanUdy-TBvSKft781iWUC75Uy6wAdvXILUepG98CMSTc91ngu9n0E8w85RzhOzoJY4r3-sdTZQoWnBo7053hmwreJ5PurmvURttbIhcKdMY/?imgmax=800" width="244" height="164" /></a> </p>I’m at the university library trying to start the work on my thesis and catch up on missed home works, translations which I should have finished a long time ago. My ankle is healing, slowly. It’s not that swollen any more, but it definitely hurts like hell by the end of the day. But the doctors said this should be (unfortunately) expected. I just wish this was over and I could run again. <p></p>In the meantime I try to stay on track with eating, I have less and less problems with it. I also realized that it’s the perfect time for upper body workouts (which I pretty much hate). Last week I read on <a href="http://meganerdruns.com/2009/11/14/30-days-to-a-stronger-core/" target="_blank">Megan</a>’s blog that she joined <a href="http://ohsheglows.com/abs/" target="_blank">Angela’s</a> ‘Whittle my Middle’ challenge. I’m not that good with challenges because my schedule and life just not designed for that, but I copied the idea and started to do 10 minute abdominal exercises 5 times a week. I took no pre-measurements but until I can’t do any decent workouts, it’s better than nothing. Unfortunately yesterday I had to cancel my step aerobics classes too at the university but I try to look on the bright side, the ankle situation could have been much worse, with much more hospital and doctor time.Eszterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15277637910916778345noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-33782365231269412.post-51912777568411678312009-11-17T01:04:00.002+01:002009-11-17T01:05:47.608+01:00Einstein said...I’m done hiding behind the blog. It’s a little inspirational quote for everybody from my wall: <p></p><p><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjwFssqY7kHIUC7LzeY9bEB-we6CBTLaiqQKtzTSSMjdMMa4tQJUE6cfoleas02Ami6a1aIQoFdfRQNd7uvTisvGzvbSzD5aXBzaIn5_hTmTsllYnlfSq831Lie0wja1XBPKeTPcqQDnDY/s1600-h/DSC_6752%20copy%5B4%5D.jpg"><img style="BORDER-BOTTOM: 0px; BORDER-LEFT: 0px; DISPLAY: block; FLOAT: none; MARGIN-LEFT: auto; BORDER-TOP: 0px; MARGIN-RIGHT: auto; BORDER-RIGHT: 0px" title="DSC_6752 copy" border="0" alt="DSC_6752 copy" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgUsc4uqPZgMSMCpEZ762SXV9vkvzguP4Ykonz6qaTwYDJ1ZQ-fjHBPAaT_xMq9UwoqS_MHcDy0_4LXIyovM77leIr98YWMvabCM8IG99g33mF15a201hw0IygjejGIdWhf5GG-TMgpnco/?imgmax=800" width="244" height="158" /></a></p>Eszterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15277637910916778345noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-33782365231269412.post-77611744831709889272009-11-14T17:28:00.006+01:002009-11-14T17:31:28.404+01:00BMILet me show you guys something. <p></p>Today’s weigh-in: 71.9kg / 158.1lbs. <p></p>Good news because I managed to lose (I say maintain) a tiny compared to this Monday without any sport activity and constant bed rest. <p></p>But, what I am really saying is, that I've just checked my BMI <a href="http://www.nhlbisupport.com/bmi/bmi-m.htm" target="_blank">here</a>. <p></p><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgSdlPtGRisZJ-UzYXRTM3GO2fEjLL4ku1ewEcFNDEV2jM6qVvkekkxRg9GIOHflx5vIUGAnaGOcohqhLlaqZfiVOrHQx6fKcOdIaEgP9s2r_bNOZrJb79SkwhljQThmtiS8PpGxKh6HYs/s1600-h/bmi3%5B3%5D.png"><img style="BORDER-BOTTOM: 0px; BORDER-LEFT: 0px; DISPLAY: block; FLOAT: none; MARGIN-LEFT: auto; BORDER-TOP: 0px; MARGIN-RIGHT: auto; BORDER-RIGHT: 0px" title="bmi3" border="0" alt="bmi3" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgYn75qiCP4hmb0-9201ZPdhP0Zfzb5aVwwojup27leAj-zMSULEiz1QIFPax68zTOR1ZbKrZ_Xndk35KIglJdvZWr2DmyzA-0EqmD_yvg42sLQgysXDpG7XgPSTMKngbR-iqdoBfk7V_g/?imgmax=800" width="222" height="399" /></a> The categories: <p></p><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjh0epRjmkCc4GLc4S51AJ-mSh1j3fEz7uWkIG-zc5PRRF7HXL-dtSJqyW9nswAbjsXMbD5_5ZYv6swhMPSTwhdBUk8kXcoKm5Av4By-fazb7eugSDfQjzBc8HmHDAY_087w6ikmNSyHzk/s1600-h/bmi2%5B3%5D.png"><img style="BORDER-BOTTOM: 0px; BORDER-LEFT: 0px; DISPLAY: block; FLOAT: none; MARGIN-LEFT: auto; BORDER-TOP: 0px; MARGIN-RIGHT: auto; BORDER-RIGHT: 0px" title="bmi2" border="0" alt="bmi2" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjX20FMdjG2vUPKcXGML7qDGurDFZY8PkoH2hq1X1QtAz7qOq2NtSdlAQwMUnTXahyphenhyphenlX4jAF1An1bqzmY_d07SCDE_mNgKPTVtje8pABj1-qLI-B_tmQsFgMQ9Y1n3DU2fcLsJb69KV9tE/?imgmax=800" width="256" height="130" /></a>24.9! Which means that I’m exactly at the margin of ‘Normal weight’!!! Believe me, I’m still a fattie (unfortunately I have a very small frame size but I’m tall, so probably this you could call cheating) but my starting BMI was 28.7. Way to go!Eszterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15277637910916778345noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-33782365231269412.post-65026923073861988942009-11-14T17:12:00.004+01:002009-11-14T17:15:29.441+01:00‘Easy way out’(?)<p><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjt4mUphBLN45aempGjhc5Wc1RfAhlFRLgH6NIIEBfV-57nwePx8QtU2z31haqmKeilF-7SSXakHgZe1G-0j6_3mz5uhIEujK_m6vY8b2tk-Qp7MDPsQtyps1GfDABDvRuA9fRQKHBYO_Y/s1600-h/yo-yo-dieting%5B4%5D.jpg"><img style="border-bottom: 0px; border-left: 0px; display: block; float: none; margin-left: auto; border-top: 0px; margin-right: auto; border-right: 0px" title="yo-yo-dieting" border="0" alt="yo-yo-dieting" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgtCSCPWlOQaWlwddWRDgW_IDZNJR98t3yMXMrdGO_u0sQmf6aC3Yc9FcsUEaxNRHnes1P0KfH8r1m6dngSG-dt24m0_-AvokBG0LrcIKfXCD5pDITB9HeiMGvPZfIFkfpSa4jlVaviMaI/?imgmax=800" width="304" height="204" /></a> </p> <p>I had a little too much time for research and here’s a topic which has been going on my mind for a while. </p> <p>This Wednesday I went to a live concert with my closest friends, one of them is doing a special program to lose weight and we talked about her and my experiences a little. She’s doing a 3 week acupuncture treatment (3 times a week) followed by a 600cal daily diet. She’s already lost 6kg (13.2lbs) in 2 weeks, and she’s planning to do another 3 week to fully lose the weight. When the treatment is over she has to maintain an introduction diet, first about 1000-1200cal per day and slowly increase the intake level. When she asked about ‘my method’ I only said that I’m doing the natural way. Eat healthy and exercise. When I asked her about this treatment, her words ‘I chose the easy way out’. </p> <p>So what do you say, is there an easy way out? Do such things exist?</p> <p>I mean I remember back in August. I was almost at the highest weight of all time and it seemed so impossible to reach not the thin, but even the decent overweight zone. I struggled a lot (I still do) with patience and being realistic. Everything was so far away and my tiny efforts to lose the weight often made me think about that my situation was so hopeless that there was no point in trying. I tried special diets in my life, the zero cal diet which failed me every time after a couple of days (shocker!), I did twice the 90 days diet but I gave up them, too. Typical Yo-yo dieting. This summer I thought about diet pills too and a liquid diet but I never had the courage. I did tons of drastic things in my life for weight loss and I refuse to make the same mistakes. </p> <p>I mean (and don’t get me wrong, this is my opinion and I honestly cheer for my friend to succeed) most overweight people have eating problems. I don’t deny, I did (do?) have a serious eating disorder. When I decided to lose weight it was mostly because I was so fed up with my crazy habit, that I wanted to get rid of it and for me losing weight was just a bonus. You can now figure out how deep I was in that eating disorder mess. </p> <p>And if someone ever enters to such vicious circle I don’t think there are such things as a magic wand … for a long term. You can heal fast but what comes easy, goes away easy. However, I’m not saying that a treatment like I’ve mentioned is that easy. It’s a treatment after all. 600cal daily intake for 3 weeks. You need the courage, you need to decide to hang onto it. And you need to follow the strict rules. It’s absolutely not ‘that’ easy. It’s a different point of view maybe.</p> <p>Even though I complain a lot about how hard and how slow this process I hardly mention how much it becomes easier day by day. Working out became the natural routine of my day, so did healthy food choices, or that I don’t eat after 7pm. Whenever I’m standing before a wending machine it never pops in my mind that I should choose a sugary soda instead of mineral water. Little things. It causes less and less problems when I’m around people that I follow my unique routine and I’ve learnt to say no and say yes to small portions. I’m starting to believe that I’m getting out of a very deep hole which took 6 years of my life but I’m still careful with such statements. I still have weak points and days, but who doesn’t?</p> <p>So in my opinion if everybody ever has the desire to leave the weight mess behind for long term needs to go through the change of lifestyle. It’s hard, time consuming and sometimes very messy, followed by mistakes. But in this process there’s time to learn from these mistakes and experience. And slowly, slowly everything gets better. Working out tests your stamina, and I love the concept of achievement. It forms the body, keeps someone active and healthy. </p> <p>I’m not saying I’m a masochist. Because if a fairy said to me that tomorrow I could be skinny, I would take the deal immediately. But in my case there were serious issues behind the fact that I’m overweight and it seems that I’m on my way to fix them. Being healthy (mentally/physically) is an extremely important thing.</p> Eszterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15277637910916778345noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-33782365231269412.post-69640344054590394322009-11-13T22:56:00.003+01:002009-11-13T22:58:12.090+01:00Injury updateI’d love to thank you all for the lovely comments on my previous post. (: I spent this week mostly resting, icing and using all kind of miracle things which could make my ankle hear faster. I only went to the university on Wednesday, but at the end of the day my ankle was swollen again. Also, I kept getting comments why on earth hadn’t I gone to a doctor’s office. Yesterday I was so freaked out I gave in. Personally, I hate hospitals and I have a sick fear from doctors. But I started to think about what if something had been torn in my ankle, when could I run again, if there was any serious problem and all I’d been doing just making damage? I’d love to use my legs on a long term, especially since I can say I’ve been a pretty active athlete recently. So we went to the local hospital’s Traumatology. It was freaking scary, but after the x-ray it turned out that there’s no serious injury to worry about. No break, no tear, it’s a bad sprained ankle but it is going to be fine, indeed. <p></p>I think I needed to hear that from a doctor. But it’s been 9 days since my last run and I’m really missing it. My lifestyle became so active during the past 3 months that now I hardly can cope with ‘doing nothing’ in general.Eszterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15277637910916778345noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-33782365231269412.post-17354085410384748282009-11-09T14:33:00.002+01:002009-11-09T14:34:27.037+01:00Injured, but…So the weekend was hell. My ankle became unrecognizable, swollen and purple, I freaked out. However, it’s getting better and better but mostly due to doing nothing but resting. Seriously want my opinion? It sucks. So much. I wanted to go for a run this weekend to time my 5k but now I don’t know when it’s gonna happen. And the worst part is that my fear concentrated on that this way I’m gonna gain weight which I don’t want to. But, on the other hand I try to look at the bright side. It’s only a bruise, already healing. Much worse thing could have happened but it didn’t. After 3 months of intensive sport activity I guess a week of rest can mean no harm. </p>I had my WI on Saturday morning when I was still pretty much hangover. I spent the weekend analysing what exactly was the reason why I had such a minor loss? Anyway, my fear of gain I stepped on the scale today morning, just to check how my weekend went after all:</p>72.1kg / 158.6lbs (!!!)</p>I could hardly believe what I saw. I’m guessing the Sat WI was kinda false because of Thu night/Fri morning. This also means that I reached a metric system mile stone by losing 10.8kg (23.8lbs) after all. (and of course getting under the 160 mark) Not to mention, while I’m updating now I’m wearing a pair of goal jeans! Yay!</p>Eszterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15277637910916778345noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-33782365231269412.post-40840234791571627272009-11-07T18:18:00.001+01:002009-11-07T18:18:11.806+01:00Just a note<blockquote> <h4>It does not matter how slow you go so long as you do not stop.</h4> </blockquote> <p>Wisdom of <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Confucius">Confucius</a></p> Eszterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15277637910916778345noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-33782365231269412.post-32297543784436682292009-11-07T15:33:00.005+01:002009-11-07T23:03:20.508+01:00Shopping and a sprained ankleWeigh in: 73.2kg / 161 lbs. (0.3kg / 0.7pound loss) <p></p>Well, considering the fact that last weekend my eating was kinda out of control, and I didn’t run on Wednesday, Thursday and Friday, I had a very bad week with a 3-day-long killing headache and I drank enormous amount of alcohol Thu night it’s pretty much okay. I checked my excel chart (the sheet can be downloaded at <a href="http://www.dietgirl.org/dietgirl/resources.html">Shauna’s blog</a>) and I’ve had decent losses for 4 weeks in a row so I’ll live. However, I really hoped that I could reach the 72s by this week. (without the alcohol I consumed I’m sure that would have happened) <p></p>On the other hand this week with my friend we were dedicated to go for a run on Wednesday, but damn that icy/rainy weather we had to cancel it. <p></p>I also decided that I’m in a serious need of shopping. It’s always a big debate in my head because I still want to lose bunch of kilos so I don’t plan on staying at this level where I am right now for long, but my baggy (yay!) clothes started to really bother me. So I went. But since I hate shopping I planned in my head which stores I would visit, what kind of clothes I would try on. And I forced myself in advance, no matter what happens I need to buy some items. These were my pre-shopping conditions. But to tell the truth it was hell! There were no pants like I had in my mind, it turned out that in every store I’m a different size. And what I had in my mind looked totally ridiculous on me. I’m almost cried at <a href="http://www.promod.com/">Promod</a>, where something always fits for me, most of my clothes were purchased there. So I went back to basics, and I was like the first two things which would fit I would buy them immediately. Finally, I bought a darkish grey skinny(!!!) jeans and a purple shiny (!!!) top at <a href="http://zara.com/">Zara</a>. I had no intention to buy such pants because I’m too shy to wear them. But so I went. I have a little tummy for it, but I just do not care. Seriously. I came to that point where I don’t care. <p></p>When I got home I had an other debate in my head, whether I should have wore it for the party or not. When I got dressed I realised that it may be a little too tight and I was even ashamed to step out to the corridor. My roommate kept laughing at me that I was a total freak. On the way to the party (first we went to a friend’s apartment to pick them up) I kept thinking about how every part of my body could be seen. So the night ended up in an enormous alcohol drinking event. We were so drunk I could hardly feel anything just the fun. The whole world was spinning at the party and I hardly have any clear memories. I didn’t feel how wasted I was but I think we were pretty much out of it. <p></p>And it happened. To tell the truth I hardly remember how I fell, or how big I fell but I fell bad on my right ankle when we were jumping on the dance floor I suppose. I felt a huge pain for 10 seconds and I couldn’t stand on my ankle for a minute or two but later it didn’t mean any problem. On the other hand, when I woke up the next morning with almost the worst hangover in my life I could literally scream. My ankle looked bad but I didn’t make a big deal about it. It hurt like hell but I was hurting so much everywhere too. But when I arrived home I collected all my courage and checked my ankle. It looked terrible (<a href="http://images.google.hu/images?hl=hu&source=hp&q=sprained%20ankle&um=1&ie=UTF-8&sa=N&tab=wi">exactly like this</a>, but I warn you it’s not nice)! All purple and swollen and I hardly could walk. :( <p></p>The party totally worth it. I mean I had such great time!!! But I’m also freaked out a little bit. Today would have been the very last training for my c25k. <p></p><p><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiMk-ZeUjduu_k2Sbyzm-z5SYgal2-c2GjihS5qeWFLnxcEFnM6rPxNAgpbaI6tkkKN0Xlbj4V7USXGzpusfhkxUPR1hZ3VlUzV23o5u3Orf57HlgSNm5LBrxUf9R7JBLXBsa_2-bya8hw/s1600-h/run5kschedFIN%5B3%5D.png"><img style="BORDER-BOTTOM: 0px; BORDER-LEFT: 0px; DISPLAY: block; FLOAT: none; MARGIN-LEFT: auto; BORDER-TOP: 0px; MARGIN-RIGHT: auto; BORDER-RIGHT: 0px" title="run5kschedFIN" border="0" alt="run5kschedFIN" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiQzxjnbhT5vRoNoTNyhFhl5x4RB-D6To8XSfKA-MdnrXdZqtIkMHN7E8FgsSR7pSHjvoBa4-3ciH42Ofv5LLdAo-xmeyfWi0DAfx0yKjUmnEJl57KV1-3zLMwzwSv5ZJwfjOEJZ98TxTY/?imgmax=800" width="260" height="140" /></a> </p>I made this far and now I need to postpone finishing the program. I’ve already picked out my c210k program, would have started next week. Now, I’m stucked in front of the computer hurting and also fighting with a damn cold/fever. I have no idea when I can run again, it just doesn’t look good. :(Eszterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15277637910916778345noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-33782365231269412.post-44563217305436859472009-11-01T21:36:00.005+01:002009-11-01T21:42:57.337+01:00Scale, numbers, NovemberThe past two weeks I had some major results I just haven’t had the time to write about them yet. First, last week I managed to reach the ‘under 75kg’ mark, which means that I’m finally in a zone when the numbers at least a bit friendlier. On the other hand the last 3-day-weekend was spent in a famous Hungarian city and to tell the truth I didn’t care about eating well that much during that weekend. I have the weigh-ins usually on Saturday, but due to that past weekend I stepped on the scale on Tuesday, just for a quick check-in. It showed a sad number: 75.5 (166.4). I was totally prepared for the typical dieter catch 22. You lose and you just think that you could eat. I mentally tried to train myself accepting the first gain, I managed to agree with myself anything which starts with 74.something would be good. Then for my biggest surprise I finally reached the 73s! I have absolutely no idea how, but I’ll take it. <p></p>While I was tracking my food and workouts I realised, damn this week was the number 12. Technically that means 3 months, but basically I’ve been doing this whole complex thing for <strong>76 days</strong>. Crazy to think of it as it is. I had no idea if I could make even the one week and look at this now: <p></p><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjIXaqlm7Ft4oacPjRIVq76JD6CKhLFmbdKg78DmnGf90kpgYI78ZrF6_4UP1fCYC9sFetpEGZogeZQw0Mpbid4sifxwSSOoiCynjIA2m5pdwHD9gplPBgjXM6A12F-PYbebtIGXsL8Sb4/s1600-h/DG%20week%2012%20results%5B3%5D.png"><img style="BORDER-BOTTOM: 0px; BORDER-LEFT: 0px; DISPLAY: block; FLOAT: none; MARGIN-LEFT: auto; BORDER-TOP: 0px; MARGIN-RIGHT: auto; BORDER-RIGHT: 0px" title="DG week 12 results" border="0" alt="DG week 12 results" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh7hfr7DLcDfc5a7xxE9352AvMemIkyvSW-8YyfPTJnhr72ddot0N2KAwwSGboibcQkKGtW6CXn-FfBjYMOGnEa3NFUR7xnQgrdKWmy6jE7Xw2NLc-ptL5eYcMOW4aFo_p6stycnG9VUj4/?imgmax=800" width="260" height="134" /></a>Since 17th August 2009 I <strong>officially lost 11.34% of my starting weight</strong>, my BMI dropped from 28.7 to 25.4. I completed 55.62% of my total goal, I’m 9.4kg (20.7lbs) lighter than I was 2.5 months ago. I’m happy and energetic … I do things instead of not doing. <p></p><p><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjJTX7bHB_5isFYsXRyBRSMKEMKQKzowEYZm2xk0KazzMcVV5dS9BBPYJhMAJHl60vMl1x3fgWIm8O0ObVwr0RCTbDzYHoJDhJZXDlLI3yPV4bTNlrjvoPIZ5sCdBH5RIR8H89RJcjUf7A/s1600-h/progress%20chart%5B3%5D.png"><img style="BORDER-BOTTOM: 0px; BORDER-LEFT: 0px; DISPLAY: block; FLOAT: none; MARGIN-LEFT: auto; BORDER-TOP: 0px; MARGIN-RIGHT: auto; BORDER-RIGHT: 0px" title="progress chart" border="0" alt="progress chart" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhsGdEPd2lw_u3v-BB-_l0HBJ74KLFC9CFmFu70tb_QPKcjaH7x2bAq0kUCTR5WpTXwaNYsWrVp3woBtdCu2k9j8jjP10yWZyA1pG0jWmWt1_C9QXw8CT9-TWAfJLDyuE7CyzYUSYtJHIw/?imgmax=800" width="260" height="166" /></a></p>So what’s next? <p></p>It’s <strong>November</strong>. A new month with new objectives. When I <a href="http://one-forty-five.blogspot.com/2009_09_01_archive.html">set my goals</a> back in September I aimed my birthday, December 6. Now I see things a little different. <p></p>Honestly, losing 7.5kg (16.7lbs) in 36 days is a bit unreasonable. Possible, if I try some ‘magic’, but I made a promise to myself that I won’t do anything drastic. I have exactly 5 weeks till then so I try to get to the zone of 68something kilos, or say the least get under the 150lbs mark. That absolutely could work out, and this way the deadline for the 145 can be New Year’s. In this I calculated Christmas and a freaky exam period. <p></p>But how I’m going to achieve this is another matter. I run, despite the fact that it’s starting to be freezing cold outside. I have only 1 week left from my c25k program, so I think I continue with the 10k program. (any training schedule suggestions?). Now it seems I also have a running buddy so keeping each other motivated can result in something great! However, there’s no problem with running, but I do have a problem with workouts. I just find them boring as hell, but I’m in a serious need of upper body workouts. I’ll try my best to do them at least 2times a week. <p></p>I’m still tracking my food and I think I’m doing fine. Yesterday was though a bit out of control, but in general I’m surprised how much willpower and control I have, so I won’t make a fuss about a weird day. But as for November I’d like to spend some time in the kitchen, try out new things. I’m a terrible cook since there’s only a few things I can prepare, so as a resolution I try to do something about this. <p></p>Until then, my mini goal is get under 70kilos. And not to give up because of the weather. 2 years ago I got lost somewhere around here…Eszterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15277637910916778345noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-33782365231269412.post-34870274112649610832009-11-01T15:45:00.003+01:002009-11-01T15:46:51.851+01:00Running Budapest by nightThis week was quite optimal for running. Finally I could find the time to catch up on my c25k schedule and even more, I managed to find a running buddy! The idea was very random since I’ve been feeling the lack of motivation towards the lonely workouts. Now, motivation hit me again! <p></p>So after our cruel Wednesday evening class with a dedicated friend we decided to hit the pavement on the lovely <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Andr%C3%A1ssy_Avenue">Andrassy street</a>. I wish we could find a place with trail but since last week it is already dark around 5pm and Andrassy street is relatively the most lighted place we could come up with. On the other hand usually when I’m running in Budapest I mostly run on the riverside of the Danube, where are hardly any people to notice, usually runners or walkers. But with Andrassy street and Oktogon that was a totally different thing. It was funny that we were worried about stepping out into the crowd in our running gear. Oktogon was crowded but then when we were running beside the old diplomatic buildings it became nice. <p></p><p><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjxVqfpadthF1EDn3K54o5gTUDNMHwSNmmFa5q4li1fP-o2NMS1pNW4Ns4GtLSW7bqRmZu_aJfN92K8OiN9gVJpM1rmGYS0U4e5s2b4uoEh9JfqznJcWXlgyCF6FS4IQJ8YQ3w0y7E5E9Q/s1600-h/2112363055_ce5f02f92b4.jpg"><img style="BORDER-RIGHT-WIDTH: 0px; DISPLAY: block; FLOAT: none; BORDER-TOP-WIDTH: 0px; BORDER-BOTTOM-WIDTH: 0px; MARGIN-LEFT: auto; BORDER-LEFT-WIDTH: 0px; MARGIN-RIGHT: auto" title="2112363055_ce5f02f92b" border="0" alt="2112363055_ce5f02f92b" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEidijgGdqy-N2X7Gle8NBpm6_1n6so25ECWlfuKkw8V7ObCYA1PXicgrEZGZtuEOMfoXNp7Owj8VJ_rbAinXmu7nBVcItFzH9Snp2RB_QQWUeU2GlBHcR73jKtoxikOPG_b7A38MGy6sok/?imgmax=800" width="260" height="180" /></a> </p>I was surprised to realise how much we could run without stopping. We ran from <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Oktogon">Oktogon</a> to <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Heroes%27_Square_(Budapest)">Heroes’ square</a>, then into <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Vajdahunyad_Castle">Vajdahunyad castle</a>, and then back. With some calculations it was a 4.52km (~2.8miles) all together, interrupted with 2 smaller walks if I remember well. 30 minutes later we arrived back to the apartment as two energetic bombs. Seriously, it felt amazing! We decided that we would make a habit of this running get-together. <p></p>Two days later my legs weren’t so tired so I went for a run on Friday, and I plan to go for an other one in half an hour. However, I did realise since the local temperature is getting lower and lower I really need to buy some warm thing for my ears. Any ideas? Also, please if you know any good mapping application or site for measuring running distances, please drop me a line, it would be greatly appreciated. Cheers. (:Eszterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15277637910916778345noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-33782365231269412.post-81993652925562625272009-10-30T20:39:00.002+01:002009-10-31T08:49:26.945+01:00Awake.<p align="center"><object width="400" height="300"><param name="allowfullscreen" value="true" /><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always" /><param name="movie" value="http://vimeo.com/moogaloop.swf?clip_id=1156915&server=vimeo.com&show_title=1&show_byline=1&show_portrait=0&color=ff0179&fullscreen=1" /><embed src="http://vimeo.com/moogaloop.swf?clip_id=1156915&server=vimeo.com&show_title=1&show_byline=1&show_portrait=0&color=ff0179&fullscreen=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowfullscreen="true" allowscriptaccess="always" width="400" height="300"></embed></object></p>Eszterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15277637910916778345noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-33782365231269412.post-33590746298462661032009-10-26T22:39:00.003+01:002009-11-01T15:47:47.273+01:00Good times, bad timesLast Tuesday we celebrated a day early a close friend’s birthday. We had <a href="http://www.mupa.hu/index.jsp" target="_blank">tickets</a> to the <a href="http://www.ibusz.hu/files/tiny_mce/Incoming/m%C3%BCpa.jpg" target="_blank">MUPA</a> for a special movie screening, basically a modern jazz concert by the famous Hungarian vocalist, <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ITWhJ0zy01k" target="_blank">Veronika Harcsa</a>. Before the concert we went to a restaurant to have dinner, and it was a great opportunity also, because our birthday friend brought her Portuguese boyfriend (whom I haven’t seen for almost 1,5 years), and he also brought a Portuguese friend so we had a lovely company. Unfortunately my tummy felt freaky so I only ordered an iced-coffee, but for my bad luck they put all the sugary cream and sugar without asking my opinion. I didn’t want to make a scene and make a deal about it, so I drank half of the glass. (I have some issues with my stomach and sugar.) Anyway, we went to a concert which first was hell but after the first 3 tracks turned out to be awesome. The music was so unbelievably beautiful and touching so when the show was over we were in a complete shock. It was only around 10 pm so we decided to go to the birthday girl’s apartment to chill and have a tea since it was freezing cold. We had so much fun there, started to share the common stories, watch the photos the guys made in Zagreb, etc. And then came a point where my tummy started to hurt again and I felt that very unpleasant pain all over. The whole ‘thing’ is getting better and better but still. Especially when you’re surrounded people and don’t want them to know. I cannot help myself so I lay down to the sofa. We were supposed to leave but I kept saying ‘a couple minutes’ when they realized there was something wrong. The birthday girl’s boyfriend is a doctor, so he started to ask questions. And randomly I started to talk. Which I never do about ‘this’ situation. Never, not even on this blog, not even with my closest friends. I still don’t know why or how it happened, despite the fact that it freaked me out that he did know the medical background of these things. So basically I didn’t have to say ‘that much’. Anyway, it was better to hear things in such informal atmosphere and from a different point of view. And I was so surprised to hear something, which I haven’t heard before, that ‘it’s okay’. I mean I always heard how bad and abnormal thing this is, but never, never that ‘it’s okay’. For a very long time this was the first time when I didn’t feel so bad and guilty. Maybe that’s the key. </p>On our way back home this whole conversation freaked me out a lot. I hardly got any sleep and I had an early morning class. Tuesday was great but by Wednesday I basically fell apart. The thing that someone I know knew (and by this I mean really knew) completely messed me up. Then it got worse. I felt not so great then, I mean physically too. It had probably something to do with 8-9 hours sleep in 3 days and the chaos in my head, and the test I was supposed to write that day. I kept doing so weird things all day, like walking out from two classes in the middle and such things. I just wanted to go home so I packed my stuffs and caught a bus back to my home city. But I even cried on a bus. </p>I’m still shocked why I was so emotional on that day. But it’s quite obvious. I also had that very first freaking out in the 11th week that this is a very long journey and I’m still very far from my goal. But I have to admit, it’s the longest I could control myself … like ever. And I didn’t run to food or the bathroom. I was so messed up but I didn’t even think about it. To tell the truth, no matter how hard that day was for me, but it might mean that even if it’s very slow, that I’m doing a huge progress. Crazy.</p>Eszterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15277637910916778345noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-33782365231269412.post-60832730038773486602009-10-19T20:09:00.002+02:002009-10-19T20:10:31.370+02:00Weekend in the country sideI was waiting for the past two days because with my aunt we drove to the country side to visit my grandma’s cute cottage. The landscape is amazing, the fresh air and autumn leaves were supposed to colour our weekend. The weekend basically started with a C25k run. First it was very chilly and I thought I was unable to complete the training. Luckily after 5 minutes I was back on track, and finished quite good. </p>At my grandma we basically did nothing but reading under a blanket, drinking tea and <a href="http://www.thewhiskystore.de/likoer/irsihmigp_4.jpg" target="_blank">Irish Mist</a>, talking and sleeping. I wish the weather had been better so that it wouldn’t have been so freezing outside. </p>On the other thing, eating. My grandma is a wonderful cook and as soon as we arrived I saw nothing but home made cakes and cookies … everywhere. First I thought it had been a bad dream but it was reality. I have to confess that keeping myself away from all the deliciousness wasn’t hard. I only tasted one, a small bite and that was more than enough. I was rather bothered by that everyone noticed I lost weight. Probably it sounds weird but I haven’t made a big fuss about my goal to lose the weight, I only mentioned a hint to my mom when she asked and then we finished the conversation. Most of the times I feel ashamed that I’m doing a weight loss oriented diet and I work out on a regular basis. Can not explain why but I try to keep it in a secret as much as it is possible, so when it was dinner time I felt so uncomfortable when I had to tell my grandma and aunt that I would rather only eat cottage cheese and fruits. It was weird, uncomfortable and then they started to ask questions about my weight loss, progress etc. </p>I don’t want to sound like I am not proud of myself. Because I am. But I just wish I wouldn’t need to share these kind of things with people. I’m starting to feel comfortable with this issue on this blogosphere but it’s so weird when people notice the change and start to ask questions. But on the other hand the compliments I get were nice. But it’s still a long road to go.</p>Eszterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15277637910916778345noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-33782365231269412.post-20392631210994487152009-10-17T08:57:00.002+02:002009-10-17T08:59:28.805+02:00The scaleToday’s weight: <strong>75.3 kg / 165.6 lbs</strong>. That’s a 1.3 kg / 2.6 lbs loss for this week!!! (: <p></p>The stats: I officially lost <strong>9.17 %</strong> of my starting weight, which means 7.6 kg / 16.7 lbs in 10 weeks. 45 % of my goal is achieved. <p></p>By next week I’m hoping to fulfill my minigoal to get under the 75 kg mark. And now, since I had breakfast (a half bagel with jam and a half bowl of red grapes) I’m off to go for a run (however it’s 43 degrees outside) before I leave for the countryside this weekend. <p></p>Eszterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15277637910916778345noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-33782365231269412.post-30232854903626024032009-10-16T21:56:00.003+02:002009-10-16T22:00:53.221+02:00False self-imageI’m starting to feel and notice of the benefits of healthy lifestyle, but still I’m a bit concerned about how slow this has been going. On the other hand I also start to feel a little bit more confident about myself, so this week I chose some pieces from my wardrobe which I haven’t worn for a while. I’m not saying those fit perfectly, but I enjoyed wearing them. No idea why, but I felt skinny - or at least skinnier. But this feeling lasted until I saw myself in the campus mirror. <p></p>To tell the truth this weight loss is hard for me because my weight has been fluctuating for 6 years, but this summer I reached my heaviest. (instead of stable 73kg I weighted almost 83kg) For a very long time I had no weight problems and when I started to gain notable amount of weight when I was 16 I didn’t care because I just didn’t believe that I could have gained that much. Every time I looked into the mirror I didn’t see the obvious, and I suppose many people are familiar with this. In my mind I have always been ‘skinny’ but the reality always hits when I step into a clothing store and try to find some decent pieces, but none of the fit. And here comes the mind game. I’ve been doing fine, eating healthy, working out for quite a time and I still have to be declared as a fat person. <p></p>I’m okay with that. But I wish I hadn’t had any weight loss, fat fighter past which I could always be compared to. However, I really don’t want to complain, because negative attitude never leads anywhere and I do enjoy wearing the pants which are getting loose. It looks funny, but feels amazing. (:Eszterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15277637910916778345noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-33782365231269412.post-48849392003174691372009-10-10T13:34:00.004+02:002009-10-10T13:36:53.641+02:00October<strong>Weight: 76.5kg / 168.3lbs</strong> (Can’t believe I reached the sixties especially since I eat so bad the past week!)<br /><p></p>I know it’s already mid October but my early month lack of enthusiasm postponed this monthly entry. When September started <a href="http://one-forty-five.blogspot.com/2009/09/say-hi-to-seventies-weight-78.html" target="_blank">I wrote about</a> the goals, expectations and now I’m trying to do the same and review the past month. The list:<br /><p></p><strike>- Keep tracking food and workouts</strike><br /><strike>- Dinner always before 7pm</strike> (there were only 3-4 exceptions)<br /><strike>- Start the run 5k program<br /></strike>- Try out yoga or pilates<br /><strike>- Workout at least 4 times a week</strike> (though I worked out mostly 3 times a week, but those were very active and effective workout sessions, so I consider it a success)<br /><br />All in all September went well, I passed that crucial exam I was so afraid of, I moved to a new place which turned out to be amazing, my last year of university is also going pretty well. Tons of schoolwork but I manage to find the balance. I’m also living a very active social life right now, there was a week when I went out 4 nights. However, I feel very insecure around people. Not because I care about their opinion me being fat (I do care a little), but the simple fact that I’m not feeling comfortable in my own skin. It can be so annoying to witness what my life would be if I wasn’t this heavy. And I say this because in my friend circle basically I’m the only one who is obese.<br /><p></p>As for October I have bigger plans. I mean September seemed like a test month for me, whether I can keep up with myself while I need to attend classes and be back to Budapest. It worked, I just need to boost things up a little. I calculated a little with the numbers and in order to get close to my goal by my birthday I need 1.8-2 pound weekly losses. On 5th November I’m also invited to a huge party, so my short term goal is to get close to the 160lbs mark. In addition:<br /><p></p>- Keep tracking food and workouts<br />- blog regularly<br />- finish 5k program<br />- increase weekly workout sessions<br />- give yoga another tryEszterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15277637910916778345noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-33782365231269412.post-36345652837644314922009-10-09T22:23:00.005+02:002009-10-09T22:29:26.342+02:00Run!It’s amazing that in running how a person’s stamina can improve in such short term. I remember <a href="http://one-forty-five.blogspot.com/2009/09/first-run.html" target="_blank">my first run</a>, I hardly could jog through the 8 * 1 minute sets. I kept checking my watch that how an earth could 60 seconds last an eternity. <p></p>However, my fears (knee problems?, am I too heavy to run?) are still on the surface but despite all of this I always look forward to the running days. I found a great training for those who haven’t run in a long time and it seems to cooperate with my annoying (I’d love to believe unnecessary) fears. I thought I’d share in case somebody’s interested (you can also follow my progress): <p></p><p><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgWl8Aj6oAbkGOllhKnkotEXcyBu6sAuTAyj_Lv9-2hH_0vSLmPbRfpCzNJ-ngy0wDJIrVWHGalV2xbWDwDaPpKvAXpahm6MWcH9-Tiq2apfod0-NxVhvjGXtsUlht0Bc6jutUE-9Dq6CY/s1600-h/run5ksched%5B5%5D.png"><span style="color:#666666;"></span><img style="BORDER-BOTTOM: 0px; BORDER-LEFT: 0px; DISPLAY: block; FLOAT: none; MARGIN-LEFT: auto; BORDER-TOP: 0px; MARGIN-RIGHT: auto; BORDER-RIGHT: 0px" title="run5ksched" border="0" alt="run5ksched" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh_MUKH4kNYOk1ODDxyRGBP05hfQuCusVMFMoJnZ411hOcYFUREBvFfkCSl8SYCCa5dOwnjOJnZdkD5GhLyo2I58LJNv_8D2XKQoBYdcAjHm5SX1M4do9rkfYl4mER75maojnhMw1G68xc/?imgmax=800" width="244" height="123" /></a></p>On the other hand I am very lucky because in Budapest I live on the bank side Danube and nearby there’s a gorgeous running place. It’s not that crowded, less smog because there are no traffic-heavy roads and streets (only an urban train). The view is so lovely I can never get bored of it. <a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgFSkEmtQ1gGS37Hzy-SzjjhBda_c8etcj69IGNudy0SjH85tTdRTufMX5hZpHVt1mICnn9xKV5vgCXolvr7RDLj0yISXy_XzuH_bZRUa8wmy0lRvM8q5fEcvS5iL9d9ClLitVUgLa9P8A/s1600-h/3198088327_dd42c02b70_b%5B3%5D.jpg"><img style="BORDER-BOTTOM: 0px; BORDER-LEFT: 0px; DISPLAY: block; FLOAT: none; MARGIN-LEFT: auto; BORDER-TOP: 0px; MARGIN-RIGHT: auto; BORDER-RIGHT: 0px" title="3198088327_dd42c02b70_b" border="0" alt="3198088327_dd42c02b70_b" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhTHRpQ0HvBddC0nCUInakDFni5UWH85FvhQyakPFLx_Ly1K0n05m69Cuq36t6Mk_GOpQFXugneom0ZyOHZM-bg2xO8dF0EcZaAdgDa8hjPoNxv1x-5aypvH7HD6C0L-dyi6WZxWY0rx1k/?imgmax=800" width="244" height="155" /></a> <p></p><p><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh6SsnmceRL7_wUXxLhPXG-_XhoBRIro5Ht56eveLGWvUUteiozyTcGaDYdZyIFT_wS-t0d6Qe-erFEC_B3yCb0Fr-LG3dqiMCj8H1Uukr6nRLw1JsUAUWXoRM7X67EEl0TehlTQbpQ9xQ/s1600-h/3851175973_a779125744_b%5B3%5D.jpg"><img style="BORDER-BOTTOM: 0px; BORDER-LEFT: 0px; DISPLAY: block; FLOAT: none; MARGIN-LEFT: auto; BORDER-TOP: 0px; MARGIN-RIGHT: auto; BORDER-RIGHT: 0px" title="3851175973_a779125744_b" border="0" alt="3851175973_a779125744_b" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhaLjQUg4uEEM7aeSspYxat3L2F8s22bpgQ8Z1vOSHSgijpYJvISSXfybrbOGF9Gjf_0d4JDlt4UofZoK9Gtlb3w2WAvDWrEgYSA7TplBdmcAOfiU_vImJ7PYypRUvf001uBXwKRVDJ6qs/?imgmax=800" width="244" height="184" /></a></p>However, I wonder what is going to happen in the next few weeks. We’ve been lucky with the weather so far, amazing indian summer days, lovely sunshine. But chilly days are coming soon...Eszterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15277637910916778345noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-33782365231269412.post-21205654117734988642009-10-09T20:43:00.004+02:002009-10-09T22:26:40.287+02:00Weight loss rebootI haven’t given up on the weight loss blogosphere but it has certainly been a while since I last updated. <p></p>The main reason of the absence was most likely something like <a href="http://halvinghadley.blogspot.com/2009/10/boredom-and-excitement.html" target="_blank">Hadley</a> mentioned in her blog a week ago. Boredom. I grew tired of constant proportion control and all the healthy food, workouts and such. According to my excel sheet I lost 12.3lbs in 8 weeks. Seems a bit slow, nevertheless, I won’t complain. Every week I stepped on the scale (except the first one) I lost weight. Even if it was just a tiny loss. Somehow ‘living healthy’ became a monotonous routine of my life and I just couldn’t see the goal anymore I set in the beginning. So if I wrote a week 7 review, it would involve rambling about bad food choices and feeling blue. For instance last weekend I did something I promised I would leave behind myself. I went to the supermarket and bought a <a href="http://www.arn.lv/xml/14857/big/Lays%20Chili%20Lime.jpg" target="_blank">bag of chips</a>, <a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhK86xhRuLogDLOwsaOFtVaqQzv5dBPw0huBPSbhJrPlFKCFQYwDJi3MIaQBHKMCGaAWGuxifCuRfJ-m0RoHChFdKFiZdb_BwzShUWXoU71ZNTOBJAFed1ZiQRAZZMy5_KM9mVHSHcVdg/s400/chocolate2009cookies+008.jpg" target="_blank">cookies</a> and a bag of <a href="http://image.hotdog.hu/_data/members1/109/648109/images/ropi.jpg" target="_blank">pretzels</a>. All the items are known to be high in fat, obviously junk food. I used to have daily trips like this one (the reason I became fat) to the supermarket but seriously I haven’t done it for 7 weeks. I felt a little remorse because I knew I should have been a bit more responsible but some dark thoughts kept whispering why on the earth not to have a real binge after all this time? On the other hand I didn’t feel bad because I had been a good girl for 7 weeks. Also, in the deep I somehow hoped that a binge could throw me back on track because I would realize how crazy that lifestyle and how I wanted to change. I also attended to a birthday party last weekend where I decided not to say no to alcohol (yay champagne and martini!) and the cake. All together my theory worked. Turned out that during the last 7 weeks my body got used to healthy meals and I had an awful tummy ache for 2 days. <p></p>I believe in trends and the problems of sustainable growth (in this case sustainable weight loss) is a hell of a struggle to maintain. I think last week my mood was also influenced by Friday’s ridiculous 0.6 pound loss, however I ate well and worked out 4 times that week. I also started to be less enthusiastic about everything and maybe sometimes a sugar free diet can throw you for a mind loop. <p></p>Anyway, a new month started and I seem to be doing fine. It’s just patience I have a serious problem with.Eszterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15277637910916778345noreply@blogger.com0