Food as lifebelt

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I have this huge exam coming up this Friday. It basically contains 2 years of hardcore accounting studies and the exam is mandatory. Of course, school has started, already tons of presentations, team works, essays etc. Not to mention I had already taken an other stressful exam on 11th Sept and haven’t had the chance to recover yet.

On the other hand this summer I decided to live healthy. But knowing my past healthy lifestyle and food can’t exist together. I realized during my 6 years of binging that I either ate because I was under so much stress (mostly school deadlines, exams) or I had already gained so much weight that I became depressed. Anyway, I think I can say that the past 6 weeks I was binge-free, yesterday this fact changed a little.

I tried to study for that exam I mentioned but I had so much other things to do, that I just constantly felt freaked out, stressed and somehow angry too. Yesterday evening I couldn’t handle it anymore and it happened. Like an instinct. After all I say it could have been worse, but definitely something I want to leave behind. I’d really love to wake up one day and say, when stress hits me I don’t end up running towards food.

2 comments:

balanceinbites said...

I am right there with you!

Don't let one slip up set you back. You've been doing so well - 6 weeks is a long time! You should give yourself a lot of credit. =)

baystate♣Kate [losin' weight!] said...

I totally feel you! I have exam after exam, and I always end up using them as excuses to eat and avoid working out. It's super-stressful, but don't feel bad, you're not alone in the struggle :)